Let me answer some questions to give you a clue about the inner me…

1.How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?

I think I would be in my hundreds… or thousands.  I definitely would not be as young as I am.  I have always had an affinity with Princess Kitana from Mortal Kombat and she is super old…10,000 years to be exact. I’d say I’m around that age 🙂

2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?

Never trying is worse because it keeps you stagnant.  Failing hurts, but it is necessary for growth.  If you want to grow at all as a person you have to risk failure, or else nothing will ever happen.  To me, a life without failure isn’t a life worth living.  This is not to say that ding these things are easy- quite the contrary.  I am no perfect person and struggle daily to do things that may make me fall flat on my face.  With that being said, I know the fear I face acts as the propeller into my true self.  It is a necessary evil to purposefully search for discomfort.

3.If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?

It’s easier to listen to what you are told to do by external voices rather than internal ones.  When you listen to external influences you are semi-guaranteed acceptance.  When you focus inward, the only way to find acceptance is with yourself and we are, unfortunately, very mean to ourselves.

4.When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

In the past I would say yes, but where my path is taking me now, I don’t really speak much unless it is linked to some type of action.  I believe in doing.

5.What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?

Fear

6.If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?

Writing and travel.  Sharing about other cultures and learning along the way. Doing this in the pursuit to show that the world is not that scary…and that humans are more curious than cunning.  This question is perfect for so many reasons.  It’s the way we should structure our life pursuits instead of relying o physical money to dictate what we do.

7.Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?

I’m finally ALLOWING myself to do what I believe in, yet it’s the hardest struggle I have faced.  There is no assurance, it feels likes I am sprinting into the abyss and I have no one next to me for the ride.  I keep moving forward because there is no way I can go back.  I am chased by a wall.  I am at a point now where I know that if I continue to lie to myself about what brings me happiness I will reserve my spot in mediocrity forever.  Doing what you believe is so difficult to pinpoint because you constantly evolve as a person.  I  quiet my literal voice in order to hear my internal one and take its direction.

I don’t look at it as settling for what I am doing, but doing what is appropriate now.  Life is a process.  I cannot expect to have all my dreams answered as soon as I utter them.  I trust that I am doing now what will secure my dream in the future.

8.If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?

I would stop waiting for the right time.

9.To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?

I’d say, percentage-wise, I’ve controlled about 50% of it.  I’m happy to say that I am less afraid to make big changes or take big risks which has, at the very least, given me something to contribute in conversation.  I revel in the fact that I only have so much control of my life.  It’s freeing and exciting to know that.

10.Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?

I only care about doing the right things, for sure.

11.You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do?

I would ask them to elaborate on their criticism and show that what they don’t like about that person is truly things they don’t like about themselves.

12.If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?

Trust that you are here for a reason.

13.Would you break the law to save a loved one?

Yes.

14.Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?

Yes.

15.What’s something you know you do differently than most people?

Question

16.How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?

Because there is a certain level of risk and curiosity that come with the things that bring me joy.  What I like requires one to go outside of their comfort zone.  Once I feel settled, I am unsettled.  I cannot seem to find contentment in the familiar.  This is not to say I don’t like any semblance of routine or structure, but it is to say that I am in a love affair with challenge. I must always be improving something, bettering something, shedding or gaining. Maybe it’s my subconscious way of honoring my borrowed time.  If I feel like I am constantly chipping away at the slab of marble God has given me then I will have a masterpiece to present to Him when I reach the pearly gates.

17.What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What’s holding you back?

I would like to travel and write more.  Also, I want full fluency in French.  Bit by bit I am now tackling these goals, but I think I was a firm believer of the fictitious tomorrow and that is what has caused my delay.

18.Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?

My expectations

19.If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?

France (lived there previously) Sweden & Lithuania (family lineage) The tricky thing is I want to travel for awhile so to settle someplace is a hard question for me to answer at the moment.  But if/when I settle and have a family, if I’m not living in Europe, I would want to live in New Orleans or somewhere in the states with nature and culture by the barrel!

20.Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?

I do out of habit- I know it’s dumb.  Old habits die hard.

21.Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?

Worried Genius I like to know things even to my detriment.

22.Why are you, you?

That’s not a question for me to answer.

23.Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?

Not always, but yes, if we are truly friends- I’m no joke.  I don’t go anywhere.  Till the end.  But that is RARE.

24.Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?

losing touch

25.What are you most grateful for?

My life & family